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Sunday, October 9th, 2005
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| Time: | 8:57 pm. |
| Mood: |  cranky. | | Music: | Ciara - And I. |
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well its been a good 9 months since i've wrote in this...its kinda lame but i'll deal with it.
the only reason why im even writing in this is cuz kt said sumthin about lj today so i decided to update.
things have been pretty shitty...getting jacked, guys bein assholes...ya kno
sum times i just need to get out of here n meet new ppl n start a new life where no one knows me n i can just start fresh. that would be nice :) but at the same time i dont wanna leave here cuz sum of the ppl mean sumthin to me so its kinda hard, but those same ppl make me wanna leave.
Hammy's parents were gone this weekend, we partied there all weekend it was sweet. too bad shit happens durring these parties like when me n john were down stairs talkin n kt n berg were down stairs talkin n ppl just started shit with everyone n it was just all sum bullshit...n ppl like to fuckin try n take my cd player but luckly i fuckin found that shit
i dunno i guess shit happens for a reason tho...yea thats what i keep sayin to myself while i wait for the next bad thing to happen to me.
well my dad's makin me sum food so im outie...peace bitchez *<3*
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Monday, February 28th, 2005
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so life keeps getting worse n worse pretty much for everyone n it sucks real bad.
not having a car sucks bad...can't even drive it to fucking work...yea thats gay
well i dunno im gonna get outta here...
leave one
<3
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Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
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| Time: | 10:00 pm. |
| Mood: |  sick. | | Music: | 50 cent- candy shop. |
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geez im so bored..
there's nothing to do...
haven't updated in a while, no time for this ha ha.
well i think im gonna go
lata
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Saturday, January 29th, 2005
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so yesterday pretty much sucked.
gave my last $5 to ron to put in my tank while i was at school...school gets out n my tank is on E. kyle decided to drive my car every where n use all my gas n brings my car back empty wtf...good friend right.
then i get in my car...nick spilled fuckin bong water all over my back seat nice right...
so i didn't have gas to even get to school cuz of my great fuckin friend kyle n he said he wasn't gonna give me $5 b/c everyone was tellin him to go places wtf...that was my shit, i didn't give them that to do w/e the fuck they wanted. fuck that
n then later that night i get back into my car to find sum one stole my shit...yea i bet i kno who it fuckin was...yea what a great fuckin friend. FUCK THAT
then i was at adams house n my mom comes lookin for me. she sees mine n tabethas cars there n she calls adam tellin him to tell us to come down stairs
fuckin day was worthless...
so who are actually friends of mine? i dunno, i guess kyles not ha ha yea.
my mom said she woulnd't care if i moved out so maybe thats what i should do? i dunno i dont think i could handle it right now exactly.
i dunno this is kinda gay...
leave one if ya love me
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Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
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so last night was fun. hung out with kyle nick n tony. did donuts at the senior center lol they were fun. did sum other shit ha ha. but now im "grounded" lol o well it was worth it. maybe the week im grounded i can get all my homework done ha ha.
i dont kno what to do about him tho. hes so confusing
maybe its just time for me to just be single n love life. but i dont wanna lose him...this sucks.
but i think im outta here so i can get sumthin to eat
comment if ya want
<3 Tammy
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Tuesday, January 18th, 2005
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| Time: | 10:29 pm. |
| Mood: | feelin like shit. |
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got my phone today...
heres the number
248-863-6735
or
131*252782*13
call it bitches
<3
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Monday, January 17th, 2005
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well just woke up...dont really remember friday saturday or sunday lol haha. all the days r one for me :)
i woke up the other morning and my wrist hurt and then i asked tabetha why it hurt, and she made me remember that i fell coming inside and a bunch of shovels n shit fell on me, n my knee is all bruised up n shit...
i had a good weekend...finally. well i kno i did, but i only remember bits and pieces of it. n i guess tabetha had to walk to me to my room cuz i couldn't make it there myself n she just pushed me in there...what kinda person just pushes sum one like that lol.
so i couldn't drive my car b/c i couldn't see very well ha ha so ron was just gonna drive it to his house. so what just had to happen...he gets pulled over n he doesn't have a license. so i guess the cop searches him n puts him in hand cuffs n in back of the cop car. really shitty. so then he gets a ticket, a misdemeanor which i feel really bad for cuz i shouldn't of let him drive in the first place. so now he cant get his license til hes 21...yea 3 years. i feel so bad cuz hows he gonna get back and forth to work n shit.
but if his parents just woulda let him get it then this woudln't of even happened. if they woulda put insurance on his car like they've been saying, and telling him that he can take his road test...if this woulda all happened like they said this wouldn't of happened at all...really fuckin gay.
so today at 2 i gotta go up to maidenform to see about that job, it'll kinda be a sucky job cuz its on the weekends so fuck that. but w/e i need one.
ron spent the night at my house the other night...crazy shit. both of my parents were completely cool with it. so that was cool
but im gonna do sum laundry n take a shower...
leave one
<3
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Sunday, January 9th, 2005
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yea...so last night, got home and asked if i could spend the night sum where and so both of my parents ended up saying "do what ever the fuck u wanna do" so me and tabetha left lol...and then my mom ended up pissed off cuz we just left, but they told us to do w/e we wanted.
so no i guess i cant do ne thing except go to work and school...cant go over rons or adams ne more for sum gay ass reason...but who knows how long this will last for
im gonna try to get her to let me go boarding, hopefully she will...but i need to figure it out SOON for sure.
gettin better at boarding, which finally its happening ha.
i cant wait til i can move out! as soon as i can i will for sure, i can't stand it here, its such bullshit. but i just need sum one to move in with...
well tabetha wants me to iron her hair lol so i guess im outta here
comment bitches...
<3
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Sunday, January 2nd, 2005
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| Time: | 6:42 pm. |
| Mood: |  blank. |
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everything is changing.
i remember when everything was always sweet...everyone would hang out, we'd all be happy, i was happy...but thats changing
everyones hanging out with other ppl and forgetting about their other friends, kiras fucking my life up, nothing is going right.
this sucks...i just wanna cry but i try so hard to hold it back.
tonight in my room is where i'll be alone to cry by myself cuz ur not there for me
i dont kno what to do...i cant take the kira shit ne more, i think u need to pick
i just wish i was happy again how i used to be...i wish i had sum one there for me when i needed them, but the person who says he is really ISN'T.
i need u now but ur with her
i need sum cheerin up
i need to get outta here and have fun.
i NEED to stop thinking about u and realize whats going on in front of my face.
ne wayz...no more gay shit...
yesterday i was with kyle and adam and we had nothing to do so they decided we should jump the railroad tracks out my larrys house. so we got there and we're going like 50 the first time, fuckin scary, but we jumped them...not so scary at all. so we turn around and decide to go faster...yea faster, so now we're going like 70, and im freaking out and we jump them again. it was so much fun, i have alot of fun with them, its what i need thanx guys
i hate guys
why the hell would u try to get with a girl that has a b/f, really fuckin gay...fuck that
well im gonna go, i dont wanna think about u ne more
i had a dream about u last night and woke up crying...yea this needs to stop
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Tuesday, December 28th, 2004
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well its been a while...i was sleeping and then i woke up.
i hate it when they say they'll call u at 10:30 and dont call u til 1...yea thats really fuckin sweet of u...really...
so i dunno...but i dont wanna feel like shit ne more cuz thats what today was and i dont think u care.
i dunno what to do...but i bet u kno what u wanna do now, u'd prolly rather be with her but i guess w/e makes u happy...but i can't take the back and forth shit. i need to kno.
ahhh i hate all this drama shit, i hate drama...and it doesn't stop.
hopefully i can go boarding tomorrow, that would be the shit. it would make me so happy :)
well i think i'll try and go back to bed...
comment bitches...
<3
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Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004
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tonight was a good one...
ha ha only if u knew...
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Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
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i hate how this is happening. i thought everything would end up going as i was expecting it to. but is it a good thing, i still can't figure it out.
geez i wish i had good things to write about, but i dont right now.
i'll get over things soon i kno i will but its gonna be hard til then.
we hung out yesterday n it was weird cuz he was kinda bein mean to me so i told him i wasnt going to hang out with him tomorrow like he wanted.. ha ha
its so cold out right now.
lunch was fun like always...david smoked me down :) it was sweet. hes cool
i went to pick up ron this morning n i went up to the door to see why he wasn't coming out n he was sleeping on the couch lol...so i knocked n he didnt wake up so i left. and then i never called him or ne thing to wake him up and i just went to school. i feel kinda bad, but its his fault.
so my dad finally went to bed early tonight, but i didn't think i was going to be able to sneak out so i went to bed early too, but then i come to find out that i coulda, and i would of had sumthin to do...oh well it could prolly do it tonight lol
i feel so lost right about whats going on.
well im going to try to have a good day lol so later...
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well im gonna start making journal entires for only friends so if u wanna read this comment and i'll add u
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Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
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| Time: | 11:28 pm. |
| Mood: |  cheerful. |
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so im single..lol its kinda weird.
ahh today is my only day off this week til saturday...shitty -but it should be a good check :)
can't wait for lunch tomorrow...its like my favorite part of the day lol.
well im really tired
comment bitches
<3
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Sunday, December 12th, 2004
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| Time: | 8:26 pm. |
| Mood: |  fuck it. |
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well im at home bein bored as hell...its sunday and my mom doesn't really want me goin ne where
when shoppin earlier tho, it was fun..got to spend sum money :)
today was a shitty day
talked to ron on the phone alot...not ne thing good tho
yesterday was my moms surprise party lol she had NO idea. its sweet, i hope when i turn 40 ppl love me enough to throw me a surprise party lol.
talked to my cousins while i was there and found out that my parents know that i sneak into my dad's garage to steal his weed, but they dont do ne thing about it lol. my cousins r great.
was supposed to hang out with sum one..but couldn't get through...hopefully theres another day.
geez im soo ready for things to get better.
i dont kno what to think ne more about ne thing really.
i dont kno what to do.
i hate this...
i hate crying
i hate not having ne one there for me
i hate feeling alone
i hate not having ne one who cares about me...
well i dunno shits gay right now
but yea before this gets more depressing im gonna go
later
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Friday, December 10th, 2004
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so another day at otc...ha ha ha...fun fun
had sum fun at lunch today...i drove cody david kt and sum other kid here.
today should be a good day...hopefully everything goes as planned ;)
umm nothin really to say so im out of here
<3
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Wednesday, December 8th, 2004
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so another boring day at OTC, just sat here and played games all hour.
today is a good day :)...hopefully i find sum shit today.
ehh workin at 5 SHITTY!
its easy tho, but i need more hours.
well i think im gonna find sumthin to do
im hungry! bread sticks :)
leave one
<3
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Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
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| Time: | 10:33 pm. |
| Mood: |  blah. |
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i need to fuckin party...
it seems like a long time since i have
and its only been like 2days
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so today has gone by ok so far. not as good as i had hoped for lol but o well.
today me and ron r supposed to hang out...hope theres not gonna be ne drama yuck.
im at otc right now, where i update my joural the most...ha. but its alright i guess. i only do this to do sumthin.
im so hungry. i wish my mom would go shopping. it sucks, but i guess she can't if my dad hasn't gone to work in a while. w/e tho, i'll live.
went snowboarding twice over the weekend...both days were fun ha ha...but yea didn't do alot of shit like usual but it was cool cuz i had lots of fun.
im gonna go eat so yea...later
leave one if ya want
<3
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Wednesday, December 1st, 2004
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| Time: | 11:17 pm. |
| Mood: |  frustrated. |
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FUCK GUYS!
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